Introduction

Journal entry January 28th 2005

Rock-Bottom

I was here at my desk…thinking….studying…praying about this and that. Trying to concentrate on anything but the past and the wake of it’s’ horrors. So dreadful to me they were, what I had dreadfully feared had come upon me, these things could very well have been my end. At my lowest the tears had run dry. “What do I have to give now” I thought as my mind reviewed all the raped compromises and deep introspection that had been done for what seemed no reason. Drained, and exhausted from all the emotional turmoil’s and tensions, after having spent all the money I had on anything that would numb the pain, I was now sober and facing my worst enemy. It felt as if all I had to do was close my eyes and I would never wake up. I know I prayed for it, to take it all away and me with it. The pressure was more than I alone could bear. Then I closed my eyes…....

The world around me became silent and faded. My conscious mind seemed to have shut down and I felt a rush of emotionally intense pain, but as suddenly and as quickly as it came, it vanished and an image flashed in my mind. This image seemed to make everything make sense. It looked as if all the pieces of the puzzle of my life were coming together. I could see the events in my life snapping together linking to other events in sequence up to this point. Then the sequence jumped to the end of the puzzle and then quickly it subsided.

I felt a peace within me, courage, strength, a resolve. I remembered a prayer I used to pray from Ephesians 1:17-21. I didn’t pray but what I saw, has emblazoned my entire being with intense energy, I felt like exploding. A dedication a burning, a turning in me I’ve never experienced before, an experience of being, this being I saw…...

I saw a heavily enlightened man, an intelligence was burning in his eyes, he was quietly powerful, and irresistibly magnetic, handsome beyond his appearance, and was very, very wealthy, blessed beyond anyone’s imagination. It seemed that light emanated softly from around him, or a faint glow, and from him came a peaceful resonance, a deep aura of Love, completely at peace. I saw a universe in the palm of his hands, the name of this universe he called his legacy

Then it dawned on me….. I was looking at me…...the end of the puzzle!!!

So I was thinking sitting here at my desk pondering all that I saw unfolding before me. I’m 29 Years old, And after 7 years of prison, and a marriage that that yielded nothing but lies and deception and lack. I sit here with nothing but a vision and a burning desire to see the completion of this vision, and it’s no small task.

I have cast my bread upon the waters many times over and have found myself hungry and confused. I now see the bread on the horizon, enough to feed my entire family and explode onto this world.

Does this sound strange to you? Me too, but my hunger, my purpose, this vision drives me beyond the point of fear. The false evidence appearing to be real is exposed as a lie, which brings me to my point.

Hello I am Samuel Reedy and this letter is my introduction!!! I am the man in the vision.

As a man thinketh in his heart so is he….....