My Own Problems
By: Supernova
Duration
4:17
Genres
Description
This song basically describes a lot of the struggles I go through just about daily. I tend to bottle my emotions up and never speak my thoughts and this track expresses how it haunts me in ways. It talks about people getting in the way of my dreams and telling me I can't achieve, my fears of conforming to mainstream society, even going as far as questioning faith. To me this song is very deep and let's people hear and visualize a side of me they've never known.
Lyrics
Just like Lupe I'm haunted by the words I never said The fear damaged my feelings now the nerves forever dead People have called me cold I've been called heartless I thought I met some goals but I'm more like off target Thought I found peace a release for myself so to speak But it seems like I was wrong when I was told to leave So I about face and they were like wait oh no don't go just hold up please Now I'm stuck in the in between can't move with these frozen feet I tried to show retreat but when I try to turn they boo me round When I try to walk away they say they don't wanna lose me now So what am I to do I'm so confused its so hard to walk away Every time I try to escape they beg and talk my name I try to play the game but I'm greeted with major pain I fight the fight inside myself cause I hate to let a hater gain But he's pullin ahead and they got their grip on me I've always been a winner but these people are blockin victory I got my own problems you already done heard it Tried to let god solve em attended every service Now I’m wonderin what’s my purpose what I do to deserve this I always worshipped now I’m here stuck in the worst shit Almost in the back of the hearse whip did my life I curse it I know some of my actions might a hurt it so I try to perk it But the pills ain’t workin plus I’m losin my alertness Losin the grasp on the remaining sanity that I had Now I’m tryna get it back and I’m panicking bad I can’t feel what I’m doin no more I became a mannequin man I try to touch reality all I can feel is dreams I try to make music and all I hear is screams I’m stuck in a nightmare call Wes Craven Get Freddy off my back I want this set changing Right now I’m afraid to sleep cause I hate what I see I just want these problems to leave cause it’s free I wanna be I got people threatening me so I thought about the burner But then I realized twenty five to life is all it’ll earn ya I’m wising up but can’t seem to escape the situations Thought I could move forward but I’m followed to different stations The problems always pursue me the answers always elude me The more I face the difficulties the more I become a new me And not in a good form I mean I try not to be crazy But the deadly sins chase me look at what it made me Lazy gluttonous lustful and greedy Prideful envious wrathful the things that lead me Down the path to wonder really where the fuck god’s at I feel like I’m on path to hell so where the fuck’s my guide at I’m stuck in the grey cause I don’t see light or dark I just see two roads and don’t know which is right to walk So I stick my thumb out decide to hitchhike homebound I’ma let someone else steer my path cause I don’t where to go now
